This marks the first year where I actually did something for valentine’s day. Well, I actually did something for someone else but thats pretty much the same thing. I usually ignore valentine’s day as I’m always alone. This year I decided to do something for a special girl. Just seeing her happy makes me happy so I had no problem with the fact that I would get nothing out of it. Still I guess it would be nice if she was my valentine. Maybe next year.
Sometimes in life we have to make a choice between what is best for us and what we want. I won’t go into the common cliche of this but instead apply it to myself. It seems that I always choose what I want over what is best for me. I guess it is mainly because I dont know what Is best for me so I choose what I want the most. I guess I should work on figuring out what is best for me.
Lately my life has been the same over and over. It feels like im just trapped going around in circles. I feel like my life is just a re-run of the same show day after day and week after week. Im trying to think of how to change things but so far nothing comes to mind.
Sometimes we like to ignore the truth because it is too painful or we dont want to believe it. Sometimes we reach a point where we have to accept the truth or continue living a lie. Some people choose to live the lie as it doesnt hurt but in the long run you will get hurt eventually. I guess you have the choice of choosing whether it will be now or later.
I’ve wanted to get high for a while now. The only thing stopping me is the fact that if I start I know I will get addicted to it. I dont wont to be dependent on that to make me feel good and that is the only reason why I wont do it. Hopefully I can find a release so I wont even think about doing it anymore.
To me moving on is perhaps the hardest thing to do. It’s just the simple fact of having to let go of something that you have gotten so used to. I have to move on from something that has become a big part of my life for a year now. I really don’t want to move on but I feel that it is time. Im so unsure of what will happen in the future but I hope everything goes well.
A while back I said I would start making more written post. Ironically, since then I have made zero written post. So Im giving myself a written post challenge. The Challenge is to make a written post atleast once a week. I want to do it everyday but I didnt want to force myself to commit to that. So basically when I have something to write about I will make a written post.
